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I mean, have you heard his excellent voice? It sucks a lot that he died. But you can't save people from themselves and heroin addicts are notorious for bringing about their own ends. Damn.

Anyway, my laptop has been having a lot of trouble lately and it's very frustrating and frightening because I just don't want to spend the money on repairs, and I certainly do not want to buy a new one. I don't even know where to go to get it fixed. I walked into Best Buy today, thinking I would ask those Geek Squad people if they could at least tell me what was wrong with it, but I got a look at their prices and diagnostic alone costs seventy dollars there. Um, no thanks. If anyone has any idea where I can get my laptop fixed inexpensively, please let me know. I am worried about a virus type issue because it's just been . . . funny. This is the first time in several days that it's actually started up decently, as a matter of fact, and not just shown me an empty desktop screen.

Sometimes I wish I was Eminem, and that when I got mad I could just write a song about it, and really rip into people and humiliate them. I want to let loose, swear a blue streak, and absolutely slam individuals into the ground for hurting me when I didn't deserve it. But I'm not Eminem. I'm a girl, and one with a little class, and so instead I'm just gonna act like it never happened. But I will say this; if you know that you were an asshole, recognize that it is merely my excellent manners and ladylike demeanor that keeps me from letting you know what a little bastard I think you are.

Haha.

So I don't believe in God, at least not in a conventional sense. I'm not sure what I believe anymore. It's something I think about every day. It makes me really mad when people criticize me for my lack of faith though, because I am certain that i have spent more time thinking about religion and faith and God than people who have gone to church their whole lives. Questioning does not mean immoral, either. I still have values. Maybe they aren't Christian values. But justice and equality are more important to me than any other ideals in the world so I'm obviously not on some kind of slippery slope to hell. Not that I believe in hell anyway. It's just frustrating to be misunderstood by people just because I didn't grow up on the same shit as they did. No one took me to Sunday school, so I can't just accept biblical stories as The Way Things Are. It doesn't come naturally to me.

I also have a really hard time with Christianity because it seems to be a really exclusive kind of thing, though the message of Jesus Christ (as I understand it) had a lot to do with being accepting and inclusive. I think a lot of today's Christians are hypocrites, and I am particularly frustrated by the way so many conservative Christian groups try to dictate the rest of us. And if you've seen Religulous you know that "the rest of us" is no small group. We need to stop tolerating that crap, and stand up and say HELL NO we are not going to teach Intelligent Design in schools and HELL NO we are not going to continue on with this Abstinenence Only bullshit and HELL NO we aren't going to put civil liberties up to vote.

I have probably mentioned this before, but did you guys know that the Morman Church dumped 20 million dollars into Proposition 8 support? Mmhm. And the Californians bought into it. Why in the world would anyone with any sense at all listen to what those folk have to say about marriage? I know they are no longer in favor of polygamy but for Christ's sake, the founder of their faith WAS a practicing polygamist. And we're taking their word about the sanctity of marriage? WTF?

Anyway, this has turned into more of a rant than I've meant for it to. I'm just mad and taking it out in this venue, on this topic.

The lesson to be learned, ladies, is that you should stick to your guns and ignore the sons-of-bitches, even if you have had several glasses of Keystone. They are terrible human beings, who will pry your atheist/feminist tendencies out of you by pretending to be nice, and non-judgemental. Then they'll hold it against you later and act like you are some manner of freak.

When really, you just have strong and healthy opinions.

Good thing there is that beautiful beautiful beautiful boy in my Biology class to daydream about.